I look back and see how much has happened in the last few years and I have a great feeling of gratitude. After all, despite all the difficulties and how many things had to go wrong to get it right (things that are not always apparent to those who look from the outside), doing the math, it was all worth it and could not be better.
But on the other side of the scale, I realize that we tend to thank only when everything is going well. Going “well” according to our standard of happiness, because if things go sideways, we then think something is wrong.
It is as if, in a way, we lived asking for the will of God to come true, but at the same time we live in favor of our own noses. And sometimes, everything has to fall apart for us to realize that priority inversion.
From all this world madness, what really matters comes for free and by grace. They are the simplest and easiest things to say, but the hardest things to be put into practice. After all, talking about how you have to love your neighbor is easy. Easy until the moment that the the neighbor commits some barbarity. Then we leave this story of having to love only for those we care about.
Therefore, my desire in 2017 is that I should empty myself from this arrogance.
That I go against my own nose.
That I may I be grateful for all that I have been experiencing. But that I let this gratitude be true even in difficult times.
Because it’s written nowhere that God will fulfill our desires (though there is a bunch of people trying to sell such idea out there).
At the end of the day, what matters is in love, in its purest sense. Whatever is turned away from it is mere vanity.
“So, these three remain: faith, hope and love. The greatest of them, however, is love.” – 1 Corinthians 13:13